October

It's halloween today.... and also cyclone sandy.... Man life of a hsc student..., i feel so disjointed from the world, not aware of anything happening these dayssss.

I told my mom that i work out. she laughed.

ALso it is the last day of october...already. my blog has had a good run this month broke the 2k views/month milestone ;D ahahah keep up that stalking guiseeee, funny how got more views during the period where everyone should be the most busy :D nice procrastination guys. UNless you think reading my blog is somewhat therapeutic, in which case i would be honoured teehee.

6/7- nearing the end

nearing the end
seeing the light at the end of the tunnel
one more to go
couldn't have come at a more opportune time i got a good amount of sleep last night but still woke up with a pounding headache. Came home and i'm so tired right now. Lucky i dont have an exam tomorrow or then i legit would get a  band 2 or something LOL. I think modern kiled me just felt so lethargic and barely studied for english extension.

BUT CHYEAAAAA NO MORE QUOTE TECHNIQE EFFECT, NO MORE PARADIGMNS, VALUE SYSTEMS, COLD WAR ANXIETY WOOTWOOT.

I really have got to stop spending money on food when i go out. Costing me so much a dollar here and there actually adds up to a lot...

Hopefully i feel refreshed and can concentrate on studying for my last exam tomorrow.

6/7

5/7- Modern history

This post is dedicated to my best HSC subject, MODERN HISTORY yes i will definitely miss learning about cold war, hitler, world war 1 and maybe even leni Riefenstahl. My teacher was engaging and dedicated probably one of the best teachers i've had for any subject. My classmates have been really supportive and although I'm not an excellent modern student the competition from my peers has encouraged me and it's just been an enjoyable 2 years- GOOD SENSE OF BELONGING maybe it's because we have a relatively small yet high performing cohort. It's also made me a lot closer to people whom i wouldn't really talk to. Fuar going to really miss it /wipes away melancholic tear LOLOLOL. I think i might do a history based arts degree in uni options options. And with that i'm going to stack away my modern history notes for the last time and revise extension english. FML my worst subject tomorrow, going to be a lot more nervous today than my calm state for modern LOL.

Overall modern was not too easy not too hard nothing too unexpected. I swear im feeling more confident now not sure if it's a good thing or bad thing... usually when i say i do okay i get a shit mark :( Or maybe I'm just prepared now hmm. If only i could apply my modern work ethic to my other subjects :/ COUld be just me but i think when you're actually in hsc period it's less stressful and intense then i thought it would be back in my junior years LOL.

5/7 two more until the end. On friday i am going to kiss the ground in joy as soon as i exit that exam hall. GOing to gangnam style out of the school gates into my bed and sleep 5eva.

I just realise that I haven't gone out in SOOOOOOOO long, but i don't really notice it and it's ironic because i see my friends more often now because we all go to the library to study. Good times will roll sooooon- after my 7 weeks in china :/

Weather was so good today, yes i do exit the house... only to go to the library LOL except it must be magpie breeding season or some shit was walking calmly listening to my music when some loud as clicking noise happened above me head. I thought i dropped my phone or something, then when i was walking up the pathway a massive magpie just flew right at my head... making loud clicking noises. Dumb birds :(

Also window's only users trying to use my mac :'D

4/7

Multiple choice was hard for once godamnit. HOWEVER my ancient history teacher is a genius! he kept enforcing "unpredictability" and threw in a historian interpretations question in the trial which i got gg'd for, but then i redid it and handed it in a practice essay, AND THEY ASKED THE EXACT SAME QUESTION THIS YEAR WAHAHAHAA. The thing about ancient is that it's really content based not hard, so the things i knew i knew well but they can pretty much test you ANYTHING. I did a past paper and i couldnt answer the 10 marker because I simply forgot to revise that section, can't even make up bullshit. 2 years of ancient history i have to say you were one of the most tedious subjects and really can't say that i'll miss you. 2 years of sparta, pompeii, rome and tiberius Gracchus was troubling to get through without having the desire to sleep. What i will miss however is the infamous amount of printouts that we'd get from Mr S every lesson. I think our hsc class probably killed many many trees for our education LOL.
And just for the kicks here are some of the notes/handouts that i laid out on my floor (there are bits and pieces all around my room):

Question is, what do i do with these now LOL, brb starting bon fire. Or does someone want my 2012 hsc ancient history cambridge checkpoints book for some strange reason haha. It cost me 30 bucks man >.> worth it, i survived on it's wonderfully summarised notes throughout my whole hsc heh. WELL my recycling bin is going to be full tonight... seems like such a waste aiyahhhh maybe i'll hold onto it for now.... wishful thinking ;D

OH yeah and plutarch i wish i could travel back in time and kiss you because you have single handedly  allowed me to survive HSC ancient history. You, who wrote about 3/4 topics we study in such great depth that i can arbitrarily throw your name here and there and receive marks. Because if someone wrote about a topic in rome, greece, sparta or Tiberius PLUTARCH would have. I knew he was a famous historian before i did ancient, hell even his books are still sold today but now I really have a much greater appreciation of this great man! /fullhomo (Y)(Y)

Also i dont like our presiding supervisor shes so mean >:( whenever i ask a question she's always like "oh so you didnt listen did you?" well i find it difficult to pay attention to anything after i've jsut completely an intensive 3 hour exam and especially since i have to hold in my piss because it takes ages for the supervisors to reach me and collect my papers and also when you're blasting out instructions which just go through one ear and pass through the other.

Also WHY DO I ALWAYS GET THE DODGIEST SQUEAKIEST UNEVEN TABLES I SWEAR. 4/4 exams so far have been completed by me on the shittiest most uneven tables, pisses me off i swear.

Troll friend changed laptop background to bluewaffle, almost died. Attempting to change it back discreetly in the public library LOL

I FINISH IN EXACTLY ONE WEEK YEEEEE BOIIIIIIIIII. mkay one week minus 1hr but one week from now going to be so happy. And yesterday while getting my towel for the shower i was remembering some good modern lessons and then it hit me i wont ever be sitting in another high school classroom learning things, EVER. wow.

4/7

Aspirations

My body automatically wakes for like 10 seconds before going back to sleep every single day. And everyday at EXACTLY 9:05am isn't that weird? WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO TELL ME SUPERNATURAL FORCE?!? is something important or life changing going to happen at 9:05 soon or something LOL.

Just spreading the news around, I taxxed this off A.B. it's a post by a year 11 guy on the BOS website.

"For selective schools, from what I've heard:

Ruse 2012 is crazy good, easily should be 1st.

Fort St 2012 is not too great, pretty poor cohort.

Penrith 2012 is a very strong cohort, best in a few years.

Baulko 2012 is very poor, some say that they might even drop to 5th-ish.

Sydney Tech 2012 - the top is absolutely nuts (especially maths), on average, not sure.

Girraween 2012 is poor compared to the previous year, especially English."

Since everyone is doing this:
3/7 exams completed.

Ancient tomorrow, hoping for generic questions! BUt apparently the emphasis is on "unpredictability" this year. So should be prepared for anything.

FUAH talking about post hsc plans and things to do, made an entire list SO EXCITED the possibilities are endlessssss. Let the good times rolllll. Some of these are:
- apply for volunteering
- run a marathon
- get my license
- exercise and get toned LOL
- get a job
- learn an instrument
- play competitive tennis/table tennis
- go on road trips with friends
- get a girlfriend (jokes) lol but not really have a $20 bet going with a friend LOLOLLOL

not to mention nye parties, camping, swimming, skiing, paintball, colorrun, hard mudder? hahah ZOMG SO EXCITED frothing at the mouth from the possibilities.
But first of all must overcome this massive boulder called the HSC and clearly need a source of income to finance these burdens HAHA. I don't even know how to write a proper resume fml such a noob :(

i just woke up... whut is wrong with me, setting alarm tomorrow. So due to lack of tennis/table tennise/ general running around i've developed a regular hsc exercise routine which i do every day, keeps me healthy and feeling good! and i see I'm not the only one LOL you have people doing pilates, yoga, gong to the gym going for runs, and hte people that oyu least expect. BUT YEAH it may just be me but i think my stomach is becoming more flat now WOOOO LOL.

So promised to give a friend(?) not a friend, classmate my calculator after my economics exam. But i forgot so me being a man of my word i woke up at 8:30am and travelled all the way to school even though i didnt have an exam to give it to him. NOW THAT is dedication, for me anyway considering i wake up at 11am+ normally, but yeah i wished them good luck. Apparently it was an easy test so.... (Y)

WTF is with this weather it was freaking freeeeeeeeeezing today almost died at the trainstation my varsity was like useless against the wind wtff... Essay on political revolution and finalised notes on the core study for ancient completed today (Y). content.

seems like we've been in the hsc exam period for ages now but it's literally just been one week, one week ago we would've just done our belonging module... not sure if time is going by quickly or slowly...

Reading article on tourism, thinks about how tourism will result in an increase demand for Australian dollars and recorded as a credit in the current account. whats wrong with me LOL. FML must uneconomise my mind. Now back to 2000 year old economies of pompeii and herculaneum- economies of scale existed back then aswell (: just saying heh. ancient history you're killing meeeee. Well i have nothing interesting to blog about, well this is new hahahah. Hope everyone is studying hard i'm kinda losing focus and relaxing myself a bitttt too much :S

Good luck 2u 3u 4u maths this coming week!

economics wasnt so bad compared to my trials. inb4 i fail

So i went to library today and on the way home i dropped by the newly opened breadtop. I HATE HOW WHEN NEW STORES OPEN I CANT REMEMBER WHAT THE STORE IT REPLACED WHAT FUH. but yeah not a fan tbh, normal asian bakeries have the exact same things at like half the price and I can't taste much difference tbh. But i guess it's close and easily accessible and i wont have to walk all the way to G&L supermarket on the opposite side of the train station LOL.

its the 19th of october which means in exactly 2 months time i'll either be extremely happy or extremely sad LOLL OMG on this day in 2 months im going ot be so nervous and anxious D:D:D:

WTF BOS

so today during 5minutes reading time as i was flipping the advanced english paper i was thinking in my head please dont specify a speech for mod b please dont specify please dont specify please dont specify. AND WHAT DO YOU KNOW luck is on my side once again "make detailed reference to Bandler's faith, hope and reconciliation" WHY THANK YOU board of studies specify the only speech out of the 7 that i was most uncomfortable with. whatever two years of HSC english is over (still have extension lol)

FACKKK.

oh yeah and i swear the questions were a lot harder than pervious year papers, for example previous year was something like how do conflicting perspectives present unique and evocative insights, and ours was like divergent viewpoints, human attitudes and behaviours. ANd for mod A previous years was something generic and straight forward directly referring to context and values. THis year did not mention major terms from the rubric, textual form killed me. So not sure whether i answered the question or missed it. FAH there goes band 6 hope :C:C:C

SO adv eng students who mix up your and you're i just wonder, do they do that in exams?... because then that wouldnt be a 'sophisticated use of the english language' and if not... do they do it because they're lazy... it's just one letter. Okay i dont know why it annoys me LOL.

welp i just realised tomorrow will be the last time i see my entire grade as one cohort. Good luck girra 2012, may the odds be forever in your favour now and in the future. LOLOLLOL

one hour left

legit hyperventilating right now fuuarrrrrr. I was reading the HSC rules and procedures booklet in the morning today and it said "on the first day of the english examination students must be at school at 9am" I ALMOST SHAT MYSELF LIKE HOLY SHIT. then i texted/called couple of friends and they calmed me down and said not to worry since they were at home themselves.

Okay going to do last pre examination piss and bowel emptying. Butterflies, but once we get into the exam completing rhythm should be all good. asufhawheuawheaweawheahwe exam finishes at 4, shall update this post when i come home.

edit: time to burn belonging AOS notes wooooooo. guys its true i've gained hsc weight now peaking at 62kg lololol. And yup 2 hours went flying past, i really only get into the groove of fast paced essay writing with the last 30 or so minutes... my hand is sore already. alright time for economics and advanced english. after economics on thursday i'll have 8 days until my next exam hehehe but i'll definitely need it since im pretty much only really prepared for economics and english LOL.

so my mother left the paper on our dinner table today..

"get a good boost" "increase focus" hahahaha wtf, let's not get any ideas guys. Its like running 100m with performance enhancing drugs! you don't do itttttt. remember to take care of health these coming 4 weeks guys, stress isnt good for the mind or body (nor are drugs for that matter) (:

 

and with that i shall continue eating my bowl of rice lol.

 

P.S. enjoying all the text message good lucks + support (Y)(Y)(Y)

Beginning of the end

So was on the boredofstudies websiteandi saw they had a timer counting down the hours minutes and seconds to the HSC, DAMNIT DON'T DO THAT it only added to my anxiety and rising stress levels so i closed it ASAP loollol.

You know nerves are getting to you when you look up the meanings of 'metaphor' and 'personal pronoun' because you forgot what they meant LOOLLOL.

One sleep left~ Tomorrow marks the beginning of the end of our hsc journey. Good luck to all my blog readers and i'll see (some) of you in the exam hall ahahha. If you think about it our whole high school education pretty much leads up to this moment! I hope you all achieve your goal atars which you've worked so hard for!

also AOS= 45 marks Modules= 60 marks but both given 2hours to complete... As a paper i just prefer to do AOS because it's not so intensive since theres reading task short answer, creative and an analytical essay. Modules are just three analytical essays, idk i feel more pressure when doing paper 2...

hi guys i had to use this umbrella in public today because mine broke.

that is all.

A bad day for buses

SLight rants ahead
Today was such a bad day for buses.
SO i catch the bus from near my home to blacktown and everyday im there on time and the bus is ALWAYS late by at least 5-10 minutes. So today i was thinking no rush since the bus always comes late, as I'm walking through the park at exactly 12:07 on the dot the bus zooms past me. BIGGEST FML MOMENT FREAKING afhasfhaswe and i was thinking it my head knowing my luck the bus will probably come early or on time today.

And then on the way home today i was really tired listening to music and i caught the wrong bus instead of my normal bus. It was the FIRST time in MY LIFE that i've caught the wrong bus at my stop fuuar. SO then ihad to get off early and walk the rest...

My parents really piss me off sometimes, asian parents always have to blame blame blame the kid in order to establish their own form of superiority or some shit. Like they always say shit that really annoys me, today i came home late because i was studying at the library and i wasnt looking at time and they ring me and tell me to stop wasting time outside and how i was meant to come home at 6 but im so stupid because i forgot to call them and i'm so stupid because i caught the wrong bus and FACK it's so annoying. I know they dont mean it because they arent angry or anything, it's almost like the chinese culture and it's only their form of worrying about me, but it annoys me someitmes

SO library was pretty much packed today, ended up walking around the top floor looking for a spot like a douche lol. In the end i just went to the computer table and worked there.

watching fated to love you- audhauwgeasfagsfawf it's so good, WHY DO NICE GUYS ALWAYS FINISH LAST IN DRAMAS, the girl always goes guy who's the biggest prick >.< I wish i had someone to rave about dramas/shows to :(:( it used to be my sister before she left for china. Anyone want to be my drama buddy? heheheh :3

p.s. deliberately not mentioning hsc because i wish to keep my moods high ^_^ even though it's dauntingly close. I met my friend of FIFTEEN YEARS today at the library, he was one of my first friends ever i remember riding little bicycles with him and having 'sleep time' on those dodgy mats in pre- school hahaha. Talk about good old days. It's great how we can still connect and just talk even though our lives have gone completely in different paths, and even if i only see him once a year i'm still able to talk to him without any awkwardness. I guess thats what you get for knowing someone since you were like 2 haha

Was in dominos playing gangnam style on my ipod then i took my earphones out but it was still playing, then i realised it was the dominos background music hehe made me slighty happy..

Had a good day at parra library today just catching up with friends, havent talked to ma frundzzz in agessss. But yeah pretty much no work got completed. Kinda weird how at like 4 o clock we were like ahhh people in uniform, the school kids must have just finished school. WE WERE ONCE ONE OF YOUUUUU hahaha.

My friend did a quick anime drawing of me when we were all procrastinating hurhur. Does it look like me? I think the eyes are a bit too big to look like me :L BUt the clothing and the stuff on the table is all pretty accurate (Y)

I did pretty much nothing today besides catching up with some friends but im like dead tired...

Things i miss:
- table tennis
- tennis
- gangnam style
- friends
- School!

Fany :'D and also i think she did well considering her vocals aren't suited for such songs.

ALSO she's so cute :'D will never forget seeing her at kpop music fest heheh.

Haven't gone out much so i've just been spending all my money on food LOL. not sure if a good thing or bad thing.

mkay so you guys may find this weird but i was watching a drama and there was a scene when a pregnant lady was giving birth and the main had to deliver the baby (pretty funny scene, but thats not the point). So then they were mentioning 'contractions' and 'water breaking' and like stages of labour and shit so being the curious child that i am, i decided to google what all these terms mean. Stories of pain and graphic wikipedia images later, all i can say is LOLOLOLOL glad i will never have to give birth. Conceiving someone into this world requires so much... pain.... I may finally understand now when my mother semi jokingly says that she wouldn't have minded if she had just died whilst in the process of giving birth to me. And apparently she almost did since the painkillers didn't work or something, not really clear on the details nor do i intent to be lol. ALl i know is that this world has been made more beautiful through my birth LOLJOKES HAHA. Have I scared you future mothers? although you guys would probably know this already or paid attention during science. I still remember miss killen showing my innocent year 9 eyes along with my innocent peers' eyes a graphically real pregnancy video. i will never forget miss killen i will never forget, oh and you just happen to be our year adviser who left for penrith! Speaking of her actually, i forgot to mention that her speech at our graduation assembly was very moving!

I seem to have random accumulation of thoughts and opinions about the strangest things during the late night....

Also had a really great reminiscent chat with my old old primary school buddy and our adventures in handball and 44 home base. ANd just little primary experiences, which looking in hindsight was really great had a good 30minutes of laughing about how we used to be so competitive in handball and how we switched from yu gi oh phase to beyblade phase to crashgear phase etc etc. Ah the innocence and simple life of a primary school student, something we'll never be able to return to yet something that really didnt seem all that long ago.

WIll finish the pregnancy scene in my drama and go to sleep bAHAHAH. I really don't do work at home.

edit: MOTHER OF GOD FATED TO LOVE YOU, MUST YOU SHOW THE BLOOD RESIDUE ON HER LEGS.

that is all.

/spends 3hours studying at blacktown library- /wastes 2 hours eating lunch and wandering around westpoint with a friend

/spends 5minutes studying at home- /wastes 2 hours on wikipedia reading about bonnie and clyde :/ it's actually really sweet and kinda romantic how they were partners in crime and both lovers and ended up dying in each others arms after being ambushed by police. It's like the best romance crime story. YEAHHH this all came about because i was reading in the paper how "bonnie and clyde's handguns sold for $500k at an AMerican auction" so then i was like who's bonnie and clyde :O If you look at the wikipedia photo they're criminals with so much class  ahahah.

8 days...

oh god hate this daylight savings because when i sleep at 3 it'll actually be 4 am and when i wake up at like 12 it'll be 1pm fuuuahh, shall sleep at 1 today.

I HAVE FINALLY FINISHED SUMMARISING MY MODERN NOTES FOR THE ENTIRE HSC COURSE FUUUUUUAHHHHHHHHHHH. that is all.

Edit: yeah apparently that wasnt all lol. I severely overestimate my ability to do work in a 4hour period, i planned to finish both my economics and modern notes but only managed to do half of that... so i always feel as though im not being productive, but i just guess thats just my capacity. I was playing "wet the bed" at dinner today and i noticed just how inappropriate the lyrics to the song are especially over the dinner table lolollol lucky my parents don't really understand the innuendos, Mum: "what a stupid song why would anyone want to wet the bed"...... yeahhhhhhh -continues to enjoy the song- lololol

urggghhh i can feel the summer coming, hate summer clothing because
1. forced to wear shorts and reveal my skinny chick legs >.> although fanks puberty for growing hair on them now lolllool
2. I like t-shirts but then again singlets are a lot cooler but then i'd seem like im trying to copy the vans, snapback, low singlet, denim shorts swag filo fashion. Which doesn't suit me at all.
3. I find thongs to be uncomfortable but too hot to wear high tops/cons and sandals....yeah thats just a given.
4. lack of option

/firstworldskinnypersoninsecureproblems

back to economics and english.

Late night spontaneous stream of consciousness

Has it ever occurred to you that all this hard work, probably more than 100k written notes/ practice essays etc etc will be absolutely and utterly worthless and useless to you in a month when hsc finishes...  I guess it's why people have hsc book burning and bonfires, but if it were me since i've mostly typed everything up with digital copies the best i could do is burn my usb and somehow i get the impression that that is somewhat lacking in impact, although i could throw my entire det laptop on a bonfire... hmmmm although i think that would breach the "dispose of safely" precaution on the back haha. Also i do consider it a souvenir of the higher school certificate entrenched within it is my hsc journey my ups, my downs my successes, my failures my tears of pain and joy and therefore such a meaningful destruction I'd rather wish not to partake in. Although hsc stuff is pretty much useless I- being like you am a wishful thinker and couldn't bear the thought of destroying my precious work, like my sister for example still has stacks and stacks of (2003) hsc textbooks piled in her storage never to see the light of the world again. BUt she had reason to be a wishful thinker considering she thought I may eventually use 10 year old outdated textbooks when grade 3 daniel becomes a year 12 high school student, well that never eventuated and her books remain forever sheathed in the darkness of her dusty cupboard. BUT NO, I for one do not even have the luxury of such logical reasoning, but wishful thinking continues to inadvertently pervade the human condition. ANd plus usb's are reusable so the best i could do is highlight everything and press delete LOLOLOL well isn't THAT fulfilling. But yeah I don't know why but such a notion moderately irritates me in the back of my mind, because in actuality, everything learnt now is pretty much... useless? Like is it only a pathway by which we enter uni to continue our studies, studies that will actually land us jobs? or you could say learning this provides us the basis of what we need to know about the world to be basic functioning, thinking human beings. hm. I'm analysing my own thought processes...lolwhut.

aaaaaaaaaand im procrastinating, clearly. lol.

Cookie addiction- lolwhut

aaaaand det laptop issue solved, good economics study completed at the library today and ready to divulge in yet another drama "fated to love you"wooooo, daniel is happy today. But whenever i go to the library i need to "take breaks" which involves me walking around or going to buy something, every time i go i spend like $10 on food :CC i really should pack my own lunch or something. WHY DO I GET HUNGRY SO EASILY, damn this metabolism.

Speaking of food do you guys have comfort study food or like food you eat whilst studying. I'M ADDICTED TO THESE GODAMNIT.

SO GOOOD FUUHHH it's like so chocolatey the entire cookie is like 50% chocolate. ALready consumed 3 packets by myself these holidays.... and spent so much money on these >.> damn you woolworths marketing put them in the front of the store on special for $2 why don't you. I actually bought them for school parties but then i went home and consumed the whole packet lololol and now here i am still buying them at full price :((( Man totally going to get fat by bingeing on these... OMG IM EATING THEM NOW AS IM TYPING THIS UP FML. Mkay im reading the health information on the side for the very first time.... uhm 5.1g sugars per 17g serving, wait wtf thats like a third of the entire cookie....is sugar.... is that even possible wtf...  well whatevs /yolo. I actually kinda hate that word now but...yolo.

First day of the HSC month

so i woke up just then, blew my nose, and all this blood came out for no reason.

Google self diagnosis: I have brain cancer. /imdying llololol

so labour day today which means a public holiday which means library is closed which means another unproductive day at home. AND MY STUPID DET LAPTOP, i turned it on yesterday just to see my study notes and apparently my version of windows is "unregistered" and not legitimate and i have to enter my windows code pin or whatever and i don't even have it, FML. Almost had a heart attack when i turned on my laptop and there was a black screen with none of my documents, then i saved everything asap. Man i really should've paid more attention to the step required for the transferal of ownership process for our laptops aisheuiawhegahfgywaew. Probably going to take some more time for me to get it sorted today T____T

Oh yeah and didn't really get to celebrate moon festival this year :( i always wanted to go to the night parade at chinatown haha and instead i was at home spending lovely time with my hsc girlfriend. MUST FINISH ECONOMICS NOTES AND SPAM PRACTICE PAPERS. Economics is my biggest worry fml so much boring content fuuuhhh.

Oh and i've been reading my friends blog and I see that it's not just me, my modern teacher has been sending requests for work to everyone hahah, i guess it's good he's applying some pressure on us while supporting us along the way. Few days ago he wrote a one line email to me "Daniel i need work- thats it simple message" CMONNNN SIR stop making me feel guilty >.< so then I wrote 3 in a couple of days, saved them up and sent them all at once and responded with "you wanted essays you got them :D" hurhurhur except he responded to all of them and gave miniessay feedback for each one on the same day.... Yeah actually really appreciate my teachers at girra and i love how we have this thing where everyone helps each other out during our final externals and our teachers supporting us along the whole way. I mean it's holidays for him and it's not like we're the last cohort hes going to teach, ahhhhh Mr R, never thought i'd say this but you will be missed :) But yeah aiming for 90+ raw in my externals something ive yet to breach in modern since my highest is 89... aishhh

I remember reading blogs from the years above when i was in year 11 and they were doing their hsc and i was like LOOLOLOLOL glad thats not me, and then nek minnit here i am in the exact position that they were in. And now im reading their lives as uni students (the ones who still blog that is) and I'm sure before i even knowit, that'll be me. Life is a scary thing hahah. I feel like Im in that awkward stage between child and adult, like i can feel the transformation I got a credit card the other day and i have a taxfile number and here i am applying for uni and before i know it ill have my drivers license and a proper job... When did time go by so fast huh, although time is pushing me along i dont exactly feel like moving on just yet, I don't even feel like I'm ready to move into the real world, it's daunting mkkayyyy. Feels like i'm finally growing up.
so october /plz let me get through this month smoothly.

p.s. this was meant to be a short one line post documenting my random nose bleed, and look what it turned into lmfao. THis is what i like about blogging sometimes i just start a post and just type and keep on typing and let everything flow onto this wonderful digital scaffold and adding my wisdom to the world. loljokes what wisdom.